i wanna

recently I have thought of so many things I wanna do. so many that it makes my head spin. and they vary from i wanna now to i wanna in few years and i wanna in future. are you not obsessed sometimes of all the the things you would like to do and have? there is nothing to be ashamed of, it is just the most human thing to do, forget everything you have and what you have not finished and seek for now, seemingly better and brighter. of course ideals, goals, wishes, desires are all totally different things that just have the same sublevel of "i wanna". and the best time to praise about all the things is of course the upcoming new year ahead. so here is a small hierarchy of my "i wannas":

i wanna now:
- sleep more than 3h this week
- have an apple vodka with lime, crushed ice and lemonade
- have a bath, smoke while i am taking it

i wanna in some time:
- do the exames well for this session
- not fail anything
- finish the projects still open
- get done with this semester
- have a great snowboarding weather

i wanna in the future:
- be at school for the upcoming semester
- concentrate on the upcoming movie projects 110%
- have more time to read
- start smoking again, because I quit it for now

and now, there is only 10 000 more things... but the idea of this is not all the things what i'd like to accomplish, or do, or have but the fact that for the very first time, this NY I really took time to think of the time last year, of the good and bad and well done of 2010, I even analyzed it and made myself clear the weaknesses and strenghts of the past year, thinking of this year - of what I actually want and will do better for this time. and I think it is immensly important to think about the things you have done, it is the only way to stop the time from running a moment and realize if there is something you have waisted the precious time for or if there is anything you should give more of it.

did you think of the last year as in terms of time passed and of the new, that what could be there? because, if you dont wish for anything to be there, how can be there then anything you wished for? .)