days run like sand in a clock that never stops. sun is out and people too, beer and smiles and stupid songs. we had a four day commune life at ours, boys over from England means party and party only. by now I seriously hate club Illusion and alcohol has lost its fun. at Sunday the house was finally empty after millions of cleanings and people crashing in my bed at 5 am. I went for a run, listened some klassikaraadio, where for my suprise was an interview with Ave Alavainu and they playd some good Mozart.I ran in the sun and sat on the swings and fucking smiled out of blue, literally. At home, swetty and happy I took and bath and had a cold beer while being in the hot water. Went out to read some Cervantes, but fell asleep. One hour sleeping in the sun,outside equals with ten at bed,indoors. Felt like a baby and dremt of out trip to Hiiumaa and stopping in Haapsalu and swimming while screaming in the cold water and missed a little, but not so much, the people in Tallinn. but I have to say that Tartu in sun is much nicer, ehe .) Sunday night passed at friends who had her 22 bday, we ate heaps of cake and playd some piano. Tuesday came Mikk from the captal and we sat down with some beers to talk about the video, later had a dinner and playd some quitar. What wonderful days have passed - life, love, lust and walking bearfoot is a must. Music, bluesic, supersonic. and things just keep getting better, as my weekend starts today, gotta take a bus at noon. Tallinn, here I come!

I AM COMIIINNGGG!!! (to Tallinn you bitches!) YeeHAAAA .D

the sunny mornings are from now on mine. and dark days gone, no worries to think if you are there when they are coming. let the blue in with the blues, but this time its the sky. look around. man, just l o o k around.

w like wonderful

these are the original covers of the books which I discovered somehow while looking up stuff about "wonderful". thats what the day has been - wonderful. on the lower one you see Alice by the way .)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=76wsCjXg1DM

I am listening this and watching the video and the way her boobs move in a kinky and cute way.You know sometimes you think why the world turns and why you are and all this. And the more you think the more lost you get. We are in the end all dancing with ourselves, there is nothing to loose and nothign to prove. Sometimes I need a leading thought in my life, like a moto to follow which helps me to survive at some point of the need. For a very long time it was "memento et mori".And it still is. Remember that you are mortal. That we all die. The most human truth that makes us all even. And from there you start to think how we are all the same and so different what in turn makes us the same again. Who has the right to say how or who are you? Nobody - the only one who can judge you is tu, toi-meme. Never forget that and always remeber when judging somebody else. So lately I have been wondering in different trails of thoughts and for me there is no bigger truth out there than everything is just a question of the state-of-mind. If you say you cant, you cant.


"So lets sit and have another drink,
cause it will give me time to think
if I had the chance to ask the world to dance
I would be dancing with myself"

estonian is the most beautiful language

Keegi ei ütle mulle, kas ma olen rõõmus või mitte. Ära võta mult ära minu võimet hinnata ise millisel järjel minu elu on. Ma olen kuradi rõõmus ja ära küsi miks. Ma ei ole kindlasti nii nagu kõik ülejäänud, kui nad on rõõmsad ja kindlasti mitte kurb, nagu kõik ülejäänud on kurvad. Me paistame kaugelt ühtemoodi, ma tean.

Kui Sa jalutad metsas, siis on seal palju puid. Kui Sa kaugelt vaatad, siis on kõik need puud ühesugused. Aga kui Sa lähemalt vaatad, siis mõni on kuusk, mõni mänd, mõne puu lugu on aastakümneid pikk, mõnel vaid aastane jutuke. Kui sa vaatad tähti, siis kõik tähed on ühesugused. Nad kõik säravad seal mustal taustal. Vaid need, kes pingutavad näevad, et mõni on suurem kui teised, mõni virvendab ning mõni särab nii eredalt, et ei mõistagi kuidas Sa kohe ei saanud aru kui eriline see täht on. Kui Sa vaataksid sealt ülevalt tähtede seast alla, siis kõik puud oleksid väiksed, ühesugused täpid. Kui sa vaataksid mind, kes vaatab sind sealt alt, siis ka mina oleksin tähtsusetu täpp kõigi teiste väikeste täppide seas. Aga tule alla sealt ülevalt, astu ligi, küsi inimeselt kuidas tal läheb. Mida tema asjast arvab. Kes ta tegelikult on. Sa märkad... sa märkad et ta pole nagu kõik teised täpid.

"Ja nüüd tagasi välisuudiste juurde: teadlased ei ole ikka veel päris kindlad, miks elu on ilus."

Jimi Tenor

w like weekend

this time weekend started at thursday with my friends bday, got home at 3, had a train in the morning round 6, so i slept with my burton snowboard hat on, the mobile with the alarm on under the hat, so i could def hear it... got to Tallinn, lingered in the city until friends picked me up and we went to the horror film festival in Haapsalu, which all in the end was a total blast. and sat too and actually it has been such a great weekend that i really dont feel like sharing this with you, eheh.

i feel good

libros con titulos muy raros

music is never enough

a) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_CF7sER73TY&feature=channel
b) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FQ4zObtAOuI&feature=channel

THIS SONG!!:
c) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TeVTzPkqKeo

mando diao

todays songs, all from the same artist:

a) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ay65D2kAH5Y&NR=1
b) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A9rLqHBaxBg
c) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_8Zqi_SGhmk
d) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2KTlAEOTl14&feature=related
e) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0NlCexv2MoE&feature=related
f) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9cTiiInZIV0&feature=related

ifIwouldbeaboyIdsaythatone

HÕFF aka fckyeaniceweekend

I called I today:

M:"I can you drive?"
I:"I cant tell, yesnomaybe. Why?
M:"Well you sure drive me crazy..."

ah, the weekend is going to be greatt
and I will roll a fat one for H and I, yesyes.
and the weekend will be even better



BUJAAAA, let the sun in and worries out!

retrocool

uplatelyinmyhead

i dont know whats the story with weird names for the blogs i think i cant express myself anymore with one word. or its just one word that expresses me. i need sleep and i am tired of thinking too much and not studying at all. today or was it yesterday - i let the sun in me and she is right, the world starts to turn again! the winter is officially over, its been like long time of frozen beauty and shit, sickness and dark hours, cold and nice evenings at once and now it all has melted and damn right i will go with the flow and let myself carry with it. the tide is high. i want to let it all in and let go of all the rest and fucking enjoy the wakening outside. and wake inside. its coming and i feel it, little by little, i feel happier and tickelish and i want to do good and smile more. today L was totally down and sick after the doc not even able to get out from her place so i took my last pennies and free moments and run to the dorm to bring some fresh juice and colorful salad. she was happy. people happy around you should be not envied but you should let them shine on you, i feel this the more i talk with H or A, friends are humans and humans can be tired of being in the middle of everyones life, especially when you are actually tired of it yourself. sometimes some things must be solved yourself, youve just got to figure it out yourself. like O had bday and i gave him a picture I drew of Puhh flying with a balloon staring at the angry "honeybirds" and the meaning was simply "face your fears and find your honey". we had not seen eachother for a weird weektime now and i realized i missed this person and i simply enjoy the company bad so the latenite cider was a good idea after all .)i am sucking in the sun and getting ready for the weekend semi Haapsalu/Tallinn. today i just found myself thinking of asking one day tallinn to come over to tartu too, at the moment when we can go to sit outside at grass and take a beer and get our asses naked in zavood after a supercool concert, if they would like to come. Id cook, massage, smoke and bath em. if not I´ll just drag H here and we go out with the misses A and I. and she is also right about one other thing, whenever you find yourself in times of trouble, and mother mary comes to speak the words of wisdom, then fuck mary - the answer is work. depressed or crazy, let it all out - write crazy poems, paint sick paintings, go and take photos of old people, write songs or read as much as you can and do the schoolstuff, just simply work. the more you do (fuck the tiredness) the more you are.

what do you do on monday mornings?

etv

he left, for ever. went straight to the estonian tv to shoot with my brother and had a busy morning there shooting and helping with the set design, had a great experience - holding the camera on the shoulder, man - heavy stuff! and I really liked the vibe in ETV, all these people saying hi in the house and sitting to your table in the cafe asking random things about random stuff. walked home trough the city and bought a great deal of flowers to my mum from one of these old ladies. the sun is shining and I am saying "enough".

weimeanineedichange

theseriousdepressiveloneliness
andcolourlesseveningsindamplight
fuckitallthesunisheresheishere
enough

allyouneedtoknowissheisthere
forgetitallnoneedtofeeltoomuch
leavethebitterbehindandopenyourself
enough

istnotagamemyfrienditisyourlife
youarejustyouaperseonsomebodyright?
levaeitallbehindandopenyoureyes
enough

imogen heap tells stuff about mia

where are we?
what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just begun to fall
crop circles in the carpet
sinking feeling

spin me round again
and rub my eyes,
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
all those years
they were here first

oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before the takeover,
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines (oh, you won't catch me around here)
blood and tears (hers)
they were here first

Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say?
Mmmm that it's just what we need
you decided this
whatcha say?
Mmmm what did she say?

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
speak no feeling no I don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs

(hide and seek)
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a (you don't care a) bit

(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
oh no, you don't care a bit

moreshiet fromset

yesterday was 6th of april

17 calls

and 34 messages

.)

from the set

are the things wrong or am i wrong. when will i grow up? i soppose never, this is me. hello, how are you. who are you?

after walking home 2h longer as i should because i stopped meanwhile, when i got home my toes were bleeding and my head asking from heart how things can be wrong when they feel right

The way of human being - a faceless portrait

I am writing a storyboard for a friend of mine and getting a total boner out of it, the short photomovie is about portraiting and it is called "The way of human being - a faceless portrait". Quess who is the star of these few minutes - Francois ofcourse! To those who doesent know, Francois is the hooker standing besides my table). Okok, I just want to be cool - its a mannequin I stole from a movie set... And we will go shooting next weekend to Hiiumaa with my brother the first shots of the documental about Ave Alavainu, cant wait. I`ll upload some pictures when the time is right. Todays playlist:

a)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZDRLpI6R6zk

I love this one:
b)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5u7gj0A14Qs

c)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cgRsYkKb1eI

d)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pZRG1mBhg-4&feature=channel

and then I found today this crazy guys called Grizzly Bear, who have totally weird and creepy and cool music videos, for example:
*http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qnrn-dieats&feature=related

*http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xuYZbYtAl9A&feature=related